SoulSelf and ShadowSelf... Amnesia Recovery... Infinite Miracles!
Above video: September 2019!
Following text: November 2021!
Dear Diary ;) ...!
My jaw is *DROPPED* as I watch this video!
I have ZERO MEMORY of this video, or the experiences surrounding it, and I feel inspired by her words: "I allowed that hope to carry me, rather than drowning in whatever I was experiencing. I dared to use my imagination to float to potential better places, rather than focusing on the only place that I was presently existing. That was me planting seeds to nurture SoulSelf and allow for growth where I didn't even think it was possible!!"
Once upon a time, I couldn't even view videos from this season of life because I couldn't identify with or even recognize her, and that felt scary! Now, I see mySelf! ~ because I've deeply integrated my neural wiring to LIBERATE my consciousness! I resonate with who I see! I recognize her! I connect with her! Even without remembering those experiences, I SEE AN ASPECT OF ME when I watch this video!! (I couldn't experience that before!)
Before, I saw different people when I viewed pictures and videos of Kristin from this season of life, and that was BEAUTIFULLY MIRACULOUS in 200 trillion ways - for different regions of neural wiring to stimulate different experiences onto different aspects of consciousness that translated life into very different personal experiences: such a MIRACLE, wowza!.. Yet, it also held fear and confusion about who "I" was. It felt so challenging to not be able to connect with all of mySelf. :/ Through infinite healing seasons of sacred cosmic wonders, all trauma-related implicit neural fragments are now integrated, and all aspects of my divine consciousness are welcomed home to each other and to the present moment. :D That feels so neat-oh!
Once upon a time, it felt so difficult to view videos from this season of life because I COULDN'T REMEMBER ANY OF IT!, and that felt so terrifying!! :O Yet, now, I've accepted all that I AM and all I've experienced, and I stand in marveled awe and wonder at this woman I behold... the BEing that preceded who and where I AM today. WOAAAH :D