June 2019: Kristin Chronicles' Healing Journey Notes.


I need to clear memory on my laptop, so here are some unedited notes from June 2019!

I never explicitly remember these things, but I know the implicit experience remains within my consciousness, and explicit notes help the information move forward with me!

June 29, 2019, at 10:50 AM:

SUBCONSCIOUS PARTS

***Should it be “your” or “our” when discussing parts???????????? We use YOUR here but maybe WE/OUR is more encompassing… I think it’s “you” because protectors are helping me type….! Woah :O <3

OVERVIEW

Memories come from subconscious parts, both consciously accessible and unconsciously impacting our life experience from “behind-the-scenes.”

Any form of physical posture comes from subconscious parts: from how straight we sit in our chair to our gait while walking or running, subconscious parts carry us, impacting the moment by moment unfolding of our life experience through unconscious {beyond immediate awareness} sense of self.

Experiences like procrastination come from subconscious parts, a portion of the consciousness — deep within, beyond all awareness — experiencing the hyperfreeze response, blocking mental cognition and causing difficulty in engaging with the prioritized task at hand.

Personal preferences come from subconscious parts: movies, books, music, entertainment or pastimes, hobbies or passions

Personal food & beverage taste come from subconscious parts: whether it be tolerance to spicy intensity, or impulsive cravings for specific flavours, these aspects of self and life experience all derive from subconscious parts.

First impressions come from subconscious parts: upon first meeting someone new, the mind often draws a variety of assumptions and conclusions, from general feelings to specific judgments, all of which derives from subconscious parts.

Experiences of body temperature come from subconscious parts: from sporadic, unnameable hot flashes to being cold in the grocery store, subconscious parts are constantly impacting life experience from behind-the-scenes of consciousness.

Energy levels come from subconscious parts: from sleepiness to hyperactivity, levels of mental and physical energetic engagement moment by moment are predicted/dictated/impacted by subconscious parts.

Subconscious parts are where worries and anxieties come from: questioning yourself, intrusive thoughts, racing thoughts, worries about what could go wrong or what you haven’t done that you should, etc., all come from subconscious parts.

Personal talent comes from subconscious parts: from math geniuses to music prodijeys,

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Tone, volume, and fluctuation of both speaking and singing voice comes from subconscious parts.

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Eye contact comes from subconscious parts: from intentionally directing our gaze to the experience of making eye contact with another human being, subconscious parts are what allow for these experiences, affecting them from behind-the-scenes of consciousness.

Types of Subconscious Parts: A Deeper//Further Exploration

~~~Central Nervous System Subconscious Parts~~~

The central nervous system comprises the spine and brain, while the peripheral nervous system comprises everything beyond the head and trunk of the body {spine + brain}.

The main three functions of the central nervous system include

~~~Autonomic Nervous System Subconscious Parts~~~

“All of the little signs we instinctively register during a conversation—the muscle shifts and tensions in the other person’s face, eye movements and pupil dilation, pitch and speed of the voice—as well as the fluctuations in our own inner landscape—salivation, swallowing, breathing, and heart rate—are linked by a single regulatory system. All are a product of the synchrony between the two branches of the autonomic nervous system (ANS): the sympathetic, which acts as the body’s accelerator, and the parasympathetic, which serves as its brake” {Bessel van der Kolk, 2014, p.79}.

Breathing involves autonomic nervous system (ANS) subconscious parts. Every inhale activates the sympathetic nervous system, while each exhale activates the parasympathetic nervous system {van der Kolk, 2014}.

~~~Somatic Nervous System Subconscious Parts~~~

July 29, 2019, at 3:41 PM:

The Gift of Sanity

Neurobiological specifics, impacting subconscious parts, comprise The Gift of Sanity.

  1. Frontal lobes

Amygdala: “smoke detector”

Medial prefrontal cortex (MPFC): “watchtower”

“Ordinarily the executive capacities of the prefrontal cortex enable people to observe what is going on, predict what will happen if they take a certain action, and make a conscious choice. When that system breaks down, we become like conditioned animals: The moment we detect danger, we automatically go into fight-or-flight mode. Effectively dealing with stress depends upon achieving a balance between the smoke detector (amygdala) and the watchtower (MPFC)” {Bessel van der Kolk, 2014, p.53}.

Brain’s attentional system and nucleus basalis engagement allow for plastic change to occur within the brain {Norman Doidge, M.D., 2007}

Grandma Note Video #3: Gesturing with hands while making eye contact can engage the medial prefrontal cortex and re-instate sanity, including ability for language, summarization, narration, comprehension, retention, and working {short-term} memory.

Intentionally sustaining access to a singular train of conscious thought requires sustainable access to the brain’s medial prefrontal cortex.

When the brain stops working, we can engage aspects of the body to re-activate portions of the brain. For example, Grandma drinking hot coffee

What is “Self”? What is Self-energy?

Attributes? Characteristics? Identifiers?

Benefits?

#dissociativeidentitymovement